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There is a guy (Sarjana Kimia UPI) who wants to have a closer relationship with me. It won’t be a problem for me if I have the same intention too, however, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to accept someone whom I don’t like. It’s so hard to open my heart. Right now, I absolutely have a feeling to the one that I really …. want to give my heart…

People may say that I’m selfish….why don’t u try to somebody else who loves u….

It’s a matter of my principal…

“I will give my heart to the one I love and he loves me too altogether”

Jika salah satunya tidak memiliki perasaan yg sama maka lebih baik tidak…saya tidak mau mengasihani orang lain dan tidak mau dikasihani orang lain…

Yet, the hardest thing is to say that I don’t love you

I know it hurts ‘cos I’ve felt that way too but the most important thing is my heart, how can I fell comfortable having relationship with him.

Probably I’ve said it million times to people (Ooops I did it again…I played with your heart….just like what Britney sang!!!!)

Many people have been hurt by me…now I have to do the same again…

I just can’t take my mind off somebody who has brightened my days for almost a year..

I don’t regret if I only can see his smile from far…..It’s better than I have to be in a closer relationship with a guy that never crossed in my mind.

Maybe God has answered my question but human always be unsatisfied….I still want more…

My heart’s broken many times and I’ve also broken somebody else’s more often….

So ….

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Starbucks 10.20 p.m

It would be historical day of my life….

Sebenernya biasa aja gituh … dicium ma seleb…

Tapi gw salut buat Mario, si pemilik suara yang indah (mun ceuk orang Sunda mah ‘halimpu’) ini. Orangnya ramah bgt…and yg bwt gw salut adalah dia ternyata masih inget ma temen sekelasnya….(bukan gw sih…)

Kronologisnya begini…

Gw diajak nonton acara musik di CiWalk ma sahabat. Salah satu pengisi acaranya adalah my best friend’s classmate when she was in High School. Si seleb yang satu itu bernama Mario…salah satu vokalis band Kahitna…gw bukan fans berat kahitna sih tapi lagu2nya sih banyak yg gw hapal.

Sambil becanda gw bilang ma my best friend klo ketemu dia, kenalin ya!!!

Trus my friend bilang Of course, and ntar bakal dapet kiss lho!!!

Itu candaan qt bedua yg emang bener becanda..soalnya qt piker smua itu impossible abis ketemunya juga susah sih…apalagi dia dah jadi seleb yang you know lah Kahitna getoh yang udah terkenal di seluruh pelosok Indonesia…

By the way, we enjoyed the show…Mario OK bgt…

Soon the show was over, we weren’t coming home yet!

We saw Kahitna enter Strabucks and we were there……for several minutes

Si seleb yg ditunggu2 akhirnya melihat temen gw itu and mendekati qt….

Ketika bertemu…wah bener …kayak reunian…dengan menyebutkan nama temen gw itu and said, “Apa kabaaaaar???” Ternyata dia masih inget ma temen lama….sikapnya yang bener2 tulus ingin menemui….beda caranya dia melayani penggemar dengan melayani seorang teman….asyik banget…

Wah ramah banget…..Gw bukan tipe orang pemburu seleb tapi pas ketemu Mario ..gw nyadar beginilah rasanya ketemu idola…

Bener-bener salut..deh…meskipun dia ada di friendster list gw tapi lebih asyik lagi ketemu langsung….akhirnya gw dikenalin..ngobrol and ketawa-ketiwi….meskipun cuma bentar…. And tak lupa cium pipi kanan kiri….

Last, gw cuma pengen bilang…..wish you all the best, meskipun dah dapet semua yang loe impikan tapi loe harus selalu rendah hati…and ga lupa ma masa lalu…..Semoga sukses selalu and bisa ngeluarin album solonya sooner…

Thanx for entertaining us in our hard days…..

Lia lagi suka ma Jude Law tapi baru tiga film  yang lia udah tonton.

Pertama, Cold Mountain maen bareng Nicole Kidman and Reene Zelweger (Klo ga salah nulisnya) … tentang perang tapi ada percintaannya juga sih….trus I saw him N****…he he he…tapi sedih ..akhirnya Mr, Inman (Jude Law) mati ditembak!!!Yang kedua, Closer maen bareng Julia Roberts (my fav actress), Clive Owen and Natalie Portman…yang ini juga rame….pokonya tonton aja sendiri…Yang ketiga, I love Huckabees…yang ini film komedi…yang aneh …awal2nya ga rame sih tapi setelah diikuti terus yang lumayan… kedua film terakhir ini Jude Law kembali bernasib sial…..kacian bgt………..

How can I say?

Hampir setaun belakangan ini, selalu ada seseorang yang akyu pikirin, but again and again kayaknya we’re not made for each other….kejadian ga klop berulang lagi tapi at least akyu bisa hidup dengan happy and semangat gara2 ketemu dia, meskipun dia ga pernah tau kalo akyu suka…

I wish I had a courage to say that

but now it’s too late ‘cos he finally found someone that he’s waiting for

Sepertinya memang mimpi yg kurasakan sebelumnya memang bener terjadi…

Well, akyu tak menyesali diri,…rasa sedih mungkin ada tapi…ga sebegitu besar seperti yg pernah dialami sebelum2nya….

I just wanna say thank you

that God has sent him for me only for being his friend….(u’ve brigthen my days only to see your smile)

Damn…I’m just in love with you for one reason….

and the reason is………

Belakangan ini sering denger lagu ini,padahal lagu ini dah lama…cuma jadi selalu terngiang aja…kayaknya jadi pengen ngasih lagu ini ma orang yg lagi akyu sukai saat ini….

India Arie - Can I Walk With You Lyrics

I woke up this morningYou were the first thing on my mindI don’t know were it came fromAll I know is I need you in my life, yeahYou make me feel like I can be a better womanIf you just say you wanna take this friendship to another placeCan I walk with you through your lifeCan I lay with you as your wifeCan I be your friend ’till the endCan I walk with you through your life (fades away)