Welcome to My Blue Blog

It’s been a busy week after I got a new job which the timetable is so busy. I also haven’t  resigned from my old job. I’m so crazy thinking about it, but I let it flow.
I miss my free time, seeing my friends…..sorry pals, I don’t have time even for tight sleeping….
Masa dalam mimpi aja, masih dikejar2 ama Tridaya…sibuknya bukan hanya di dunia nyata…
bikin aks merindukan seseorang…
Bener2 missing so much ma "that someone" when i passed by the street that he had taken with me one day…so iritating….i really wanna see him…
Damn, i’m so fragile……..
but i’m so tough in looking for the "green"
Hope i enjoy this journey of life………

Still single…and available…
People always care
Sometimes they send me wise word about love
about to be loved
about being a tough woman
about being independent
about everything that’s good for me
I never ask for that…I never feel so crazy and frustrated
‘coz I don’t have someone to cry on…
but me is still me…
sometimes I feel so phatetic…
sometimes I feel people always make a fool on me…
sometimes I need someone who wants to share his love…
but sometimes I become a jerk…
to always reject some people who ask for love…
always break their heart
always make them sad…
but let me tell you…
I love someone that I love…
I love someone that I can talk to…
I love someone that I can share everthing…
I love someone who can understand…
I love someone who can attract me
from the way he speaks
and he sees…
and I haven’t found one…
I’m 23 and believe it or not…
I’m still single…
I haven’t felt how beautiful it is having a beloved one…
but I’m happy ‘coz many guys have been my very best friends
who at least have filled my heart with their love…
though one of them is out of touch…
I never forget……….
Listen…
I learn that not all good boys are taken…
and  all girls neither….
If you feel u’re always broken by someone else…
there’s someone who loves you…
Last, u’re always broken and so am I
why don’t you and I get together………..

Akhirnya selesai juga……..
It’s over………masa-masa kuliah dah selesai….
dah jadi sarjana tapi malah jadi bingung…statusnya kini jadi pengangguran…
Wilujeng sesah damel..lah…

Smile tho’ your heart is aching,
Smile even tho’ it’s breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky
You’ll get by,

If you smile
thro’ your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You’ll see the sun come shin-ing thro’ for you

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev-’ry trace of sadness,
Al -’tho a tear may be ever so near,

That’s the time,
You must keep on trying,
Smile, what’s the use of crying,
You’ll find that life is still worth-while,

If you just smile,

Daniel Powter
Bad Day
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion’s gone away
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You’re faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life’s been way off line
You’re falling to pieces every time
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

Because you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I’m not wrong

(yeah…)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You’ve seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Him

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the sun
Shining upon
The tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail
He was the moon
Painting you
With it's glow so vulnerable and pale

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the wind, carrying in
All the troubles and fears you've for years tried to forget
He was the fire, restless and wild
And you were like a moth to that flame

The heretic seal beyond divine
A prayer to a god who's deaf and blind
The last rites for souls on fire
Three little words and a question why

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

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Do all what I do begin from love?
You don’t know how I’m so dissapointed to miss it again………

I’m talkin’ ’bout love
All my girls stand in a circle and clap your hands this is for you
Ups and downs highs and lows no matter what you see me through
YOU don’t  RE-TEXT ME
I don’t even know where the hell U go
But all my girls we’re in a circle and nobody’s gonna break through

L.O.L.O.L.O.L.O.V.E.
L.O.L.O.L.O.L.O.L.O.L.O.

L.O.V.E.L.O.L.O.L.O.
Did you hear me say
L.O.L.O.L.O.L.O.V.E.
L.O.L.O.L.O.
L.O.L.O.L.O.L.O.V.E.
L.O.L.O.L.O.

I’m talkin’
bout love
Love is an energy, love is a mystery
Love is meant to be true
Love is a part of me, love is the heart of me
Love is the best thing we do
(Revised L.O.V.E by ~Ashlee Simpson~)

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 MONYET…………
MONYONG………BETE………I missed it again and again!!! Maybe I don’t deserve to see it
‘cos I’m too nice to be involved with it…………but I’m curious person…………the more
I missed it the more I want to see it…………maybe someday it’ll come……just wait
and see how I really mean it……

LISTEN GUYS………U’ll see me one day at ur show………DON’T BE
SURPRISED!!!

Kisah seperti Cindy Fatika dan Tengku Firmansyah bisa jadi salah satu contohnya…mereka….satu sama lain memiliki wajah yang serupa bahkan sebelum mereka jadian…dan akhirnya sekarang mereka sudah menjadi pasangan sehidup semati…

Mungkin hal itu sudah jadi takdirnya…tapi apa yang terjadi pada seorang lia yg sudah mendengar untuk kesekian kalinya bahwa saya sewajah sama seseorang yg kebetulan my type (cieeee….). Tapi masalahnya…someone tersebut jauh dari jangkauan…sedih banget ya…..and bodornya lagi yang bilang saya mirip itu cuma satu orang aja…alias ga valid banget deh researchnya…He..he..he…maklum ini cuma becandaan aja……yang jelas mah jodoh itu ada di tangan Tuhan kan…kita cuma bisa berusaha aja……ya itulah salah satu usaha……

Pernah lho, pas kita lagi beduaan…ngobrol gitu…nah orang yang suka bilang mirip sebut saja Mrs. Z menghampiri dan lagi2 bilang “ih……….*********” He he he…yang jadi korban cuma bisa ketawa doank and ga pernah dipikirin lagi………

Eh…udah lama lupa ma kejadian itu…baru2 ini saya ketemu ma Mrs. Z lagi dan dia nyapa duluan…dengan menyebut nama si cowo yang mirip saya itu……dengan spontan saya cuma senyum…..jadi malu kedengeran ma orang laen…..

Mirip apanya sih………mungkin dari giginya yg gingsul….tipe2 orang yg jutex, ….and apalagi ya????????? Ga ada deh…….

Bu laen kali jangan Cuma bilang ih mirip…ih sewajah….dan lain sebagainya…tapi doain juga donk biar berjodoh…………(isi hati yg paling dalam!!!)

Disetiap pase hidup, kita selalu dikelilingi oleh teman. Adakalanya teman adalah segala-galanya…disaat kita senang maupun sedih teman selalu hadir mengisi hari-hari kita. But friends come and go, kalo kata Bapa-nya Bams ada istilah teman pergantian waktu. Emang bener juga…dari TK ampe kuliah temen kita beda-beda kan seiring dengan berjalannya waktu. Secara tak sadar kita tidak pernah mempersoalkan kepergian dan kedatangan teman-teman dalam hidup kita karena dari berbagai macam teman yang kita punya belum tentu semuanya menjadi sahabat kita…tau kan…antara istilah teman dengan sahabat itu beda…Boleh dibilang mungkin hanya beberapa orang saja yang benar-benar bisa jadi sahabat. Nah itulah…cari teman gampang tapi cari sahabat itu tak semudah membalikkan telapak tangan kan…

Now, I’d like to ask all of you…Menurutmu karakteristik seorang sahabat itu seperti apa sih? Selama ini yg saya rasakan…tak ada persyaratan tertentu untuk menjadi sahabat seseorang…karena pada dasarnya menjadi seorang sahabat itu mengalir begitu saja…Itu yang saya pikir sebelumnya….namun ternyata menjadi seorang sahabat itu tidak gampang…mungkin sekarang ini saya belum bisa menjadi seorang sahabat yang baik karena ada hal-hal yang justru keberadaan saya tidak mendukung situasi yang sedang dialami oleh sahabat saya disana……..

I realize that I have to understand my best friend….nomatter what happens…soalnya seorang sahabat itu harus mau menempatkan dirinya sebagai tempat curahan hati yg paling nyaman didunia ini…meskipun Icha Rahmawaty lebih senang menyebut sahabat sebagai tong sampah…karena sahabat itu bisa menjadi tempat untuk menumpahkan segala hal yg baik maupun buruk layaknya kita membuang sampah …

Tapi kesalahan terbesar yang saya lakukan adalah tidak menjadi seorang sahabat yang dengan iklas dan ridho mau menerima sebuah kenyataan karena sikap arogan yang tidak mau memahami apa yang sedang terjadi. Satu kata kuncinya: UNDERSTAND. That’s what I’m trying to do right now though it a little bit hurts….sometimes I speak to my self…How can I understand you if you do not understand me….Tapi hal itu tak seharusnya dipikirkan oleh seorang sahabat…karena seorang sahabat itu tak kenal pamrih…sahabat itu harus merasa senang kalo sahabatnya senang dan juga sebaliknya…Tapi saya malah merasakan kebalikannya..saya merasa sedih karena sahabat saya merasa senang….yah I know that’s wrong…….tapi bagaimana kalo kamu berada di posisi saya….yang ada jadi serba salah….belum lagi rasa bersalah yang tumbuh saat ini menjadi hal yang sulit dibendung lagi……

Bottom of the line, I wanna say sorry to my best friend out there….if you read this someday…Hope we can understand each other……..